Lyrics

 "Night"

I am looking down but never behind 
I am drinking poison, it makes me unwind 
You always seem to have the answers 
The brink of light is all I'm after 

Go alone, the night takes you in 
You won't feel a thing, I swear 
Take the fall, there's nothing to win 
No one to hear you pray 

I feel like I've been here before 
But now the skies are painted black 
Mellow is the fate that I've got 
Considering what I've done

 "Disappearance"

After the day has faded away 
I light the fire to ease my mind 

I'm afraid of being left alone 
I can't hold onto this life on my own 

I'm tired and I speak out all the words in my heart 
I'm hiding some kind of love 

You can see all the hurt in my eyes 
I burnt through the colors like the sky above 

Can you help me tear my fears apart 
and turn them into something new 

All around me is beauty and hope 
but I can't comprehend this life without you

"The Light That Shines"

With those words you said to me 
I fell into a void 
Please, won't you let me go 
Without any memories 
I played with all the possibilities 
Left with one, the disability 

To love you more & to love me less 
To see the future right in front of me 
Something that made me cry & confess 
Made a home in my heart 
Every day I seem to recess 
This life crumbles & I fall apart 

Hey, I'm learning to receive 
The light that shines upon me 
While I'm learning to see 
The fight is already gone 

Kind of feels like the end of the world 
Kind of feels like a beautiful day 
Making me want to smile through the pain 
It's all the old love, I throw it away 
I get it all now 
There's no one to blame 
For a heart that is inane

"Stagnation"

Depressed stuck , I'm in my trap 
It's a trap of the mind, gotta get mine back 
Been alone with my thoughts, had to get my facts 
Almost given up but i ain't with all that 
Yeah, stagnated like flat soda 
My rush is gone 
Panic attacks got me sick more 
I've been holding me down 
I need a grip, lord 
It's a gift and a curse 
That I can feel more 
The world made me stiff 
And now I got a steel jaw 
Oh nah nah 
I’m stuck without you 

I lock the door behind me 
I won't let anybody in 
You've gone through hell to find me 
But you'll never know where I have been 

(This ain't a dream) 
It ain't never enough, I waste it 
Looked at everything that's around 
I hate it 
Memories from the past 
Now that's greatness 
(This is a nightmare) 
Biggest one I got so far 
Can’t speak and nearly lost my jaw 
Dream chasing , get a bosses role 
The pain stays and it hurts enough 
Now you leave and it hurts to bluff 
You know whats up 
Yeah, and it hurts to bluff yeah 

I lock the door behind me 
I won't let anybody in 
You've gone through hell to find me 
But you'll never know where I have been

 "This Grave Is For Me"

This is what life is for me 
It’s made of dark & loneliness 
You think I’m gonna change for you? 

This is nothing new to me 
I’ve felt it since I came to be 
I know that I am stronger now 
I hope this never brings me down 

Step to the side 
While I dig this grave for me 
You, still alive 
Go on & set me free 

I tried so hard to love 
I tried so long to feel 
But I never got above 
All the things that made me kneel 

Day turns into night 
And pain turns into rest 
I need to lay down here 
And forget everything you said 

Step to the side 
While I dig this grave for me 
You, still alive 
Go on & set me free